Wednesday September 4

Nothing to say today.

It is Bip birthday so I texted her.  She asks why I do not visit when I come to Columbia.  I do not know.  I am lazy.


The Workout Today:
Timed 300 - 100 squats, 100 push-ups, 100 sit-ups
44 minutes, 54 seconds

"Black"

Hey... oooh...

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul as the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore

And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside, I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head, I'm spinning, oh,
I'm spinning, how quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah...

Uh huh... uh huh... ooh...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a star in somebody else's sky,
But why, why, why can't it be, can't it be mine?

Aah... uuh..

Too doo doo too, too doo doo [many times until fade]

Tuesday 12 April 2011

There is a difference between who a man says he is and who people think he is; people know the man by his actions whil the man knows hisself by who he wants to be.

Saturday April 09, 2011

Spent the day in repose. Relaxing and playing College Football. Also watched the Garnet and Black Spring Game on ESPN3. Called Dad to see how grandma is doing, Dad says she is stable and that he is returning to Columbia on Sunday. Also talked to the ex-wife. SHe wants to see me again before I move to Georgia. I don't know if that is a good idea. I think we should continue on separate path and move on from our time together. I don't think we can even be friends right now because it will certainly hinder future relationships. I am happy she will get to go to Korea to study this summer and she is about a year from graduating.

Hugging Privates?!!

The CO really pissed me off yesterday.

We were eating breakfast and I comment on how maybe 1st platoon need a "Momma Drill" instead of two hard asses like they have now in myself and DS Bryan. Carter glances over at me and asks, "Are you serious?...You let a private fill formal charges."

I thought I would be over that comment by now but it still rankles me...I do not see how that equates to hugging a private.

I am probably pissed not only for that reason but also because 1st platoon has so many guys giving up at this point. thy are poisoning each other with rumors and talk of malingering. I passed out a document stating the definitions and punishments for malingering....I hope it helps curtail some of the bitchitis going around.

I also resolve to be much stricter on these trainees.

Playtime is over.

CQ tonight and get the truck looked at tomorrow...I have to get the driver's side window fixed and an oil change...

Thursday April 7, 2011

Time to start writing more. I need to write in order to think. My memory is shit but there are events in everyday living that should be kept. I am going to at least try to keep this up for some amount of time....I also need to go about it honestly...I need to use this blog to fully examine myself...I tend to lose myself.

I guess I can use this blog to help motivate myself toward achieving more. To set goals and remember them.

I hope I do.

Tuesday August 8th, 2010

I attended the first of two days of A.S.I.S.T class today. ASIST stands for Applied Suicide Intervention Skills Training. It is a program that teaches leaders how to identify and help people contemplating suicide. The class is really informative and I think the SIM method they teach can be effective in preventing suicide for those wanting help. I have known a few people who have committed suicide as well as people who needed help. I will try to retain the knowledge picked up so far.

Tuesday Workout - Chest/Triceps

I. Flat Bench Press
- 4 sets = 145lbs, 165lbs, 165lbs, 165lbs.

II. Incline Hammer Strength Machine
- 2 sets = 125lbs, 125lbs.

III. Dumbbell Flys
- 2 sets = 40lbs, 35lbs.

IV. Triceps Press Down
- 2 sets = 90lbs, 110lbs.

V. Dips
- 2 sets = 10 unweighted, 10 unweighted